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    "result": {"data":{"markdownRemark":{"html":"<p>The phone rings and I answer:</p>\n<p>\"Hello, Mrs. Demontis?\" \"It's me, who am I talking to?\"</p>\n<p>\"I am Dr. M., did you have a mammogram in our center yesterday?\"</p>\n<p>\"Yes\"</p>\n<p>\"Can you come in? I have to talk to you ”.</p>\n<p>“Can't you tell me on the phone? You know, I'm with the examination board for the high school ... \"</p>\n<p>\"No ma'am, I have to speak to you\"</p>\n<p>\"Ok, I ask for an hour to leave\", \"I'll wait\".</p>\n<p>The unusual phone call makes me a little anxious but I go to hear what the doctor has to say.</p>\n<p>The verdict is hard to accept also because I had never had any symptoms.</p>\n<p>I quickly carry out the required checks as per protocol and they put me in the calendar of urgent interventions, it is a particularly aggressive tumor.</p>\n<p>After the surgery, daily radiotherapy and chemotherapy follow, which puts me to the test.</p>\n<p>In 2016, in April, a person asked me if I wanted to go to Jerusalem, on pilgrimage, with a group called Manos Sin Fronteras.</p>\n<p>I have always liked traveling and I decide to sign up but, as for the pilgrimage ... I am not a believer, I have not said a prayer for more than 40 years and I do not go to church except on special occasions and out of human respect, certainly not because of a wedding ring; that has dissolved in the pains that life has reserved for me.</p>\n<p>Being a tourist and attending group events appeals strongly to me.</p>\n<p>In Jerusalem I decide to do the 1st, 2nd, 3rd level courses of Neural Stimulation and at the end of the 3rd level La Jardinera, founder of the group, sends me a message through a teacher and also sends me a gift with the appropriate instructions.</p>\n<p>That year there were many people from all over the world and I certainly did not expect her to know about my presence and my health conditions.</p>\n<p>The journey continues and I listen to her messages which are always very interesting and I almost always agree, in one case I do not.</p>\n<p>As part of the course there is a day of baptism in the Jordan river and I watch with amusing parade of those who go to receive baptism from La Jardinera; I won't go, I think; then, almost at the end, I get in line too, what do I lose? I am curious to see if I feel anything different.</p>\n<p>I feel the water flowing from her hands on my head and shoulders, I am dressed in white, like the others, but when I get out of the water I am no longer the same as before.</p>\n<p><img src=\"/assets/jerusalen-bautizo.jpeg\" alt=\"Baptism in the Jordan river\" title=\"Baptism in the Jordan river\"></p>\n<p>That baptism was the beginning of a new life, the cyclopean walls that I had built to defend myself from the pain that periodically attacked me fell; I'm talking about moral and spiritual pain, not physical pain.</p>\n<p>I learned to meditate with the app. which makes meditating easier and quickly becomes a daily requirement in my life along with neural stimulation.</p>\n<p>The treatment to rebalance the nervous system gives me the strength and energy to keep going even with drug therapies and to endure the heavy side effects.</p>\n<p>Attending the other courses opens up a vision of life that I sensed but of which I was not aware. I look forward to Jardinera's messages, I read and reread them and I find myself in most of her teachings, of which I share the moral, educational aspect, the love for nature in all its manifestations, the love for young people in general (this aspect I think is the teacher who is still in me).</p>\n<p>Many other things I share and I have a lot to learn …</p>\n<p>The certainty that Jardy played a fundamental role in my recovery from the tumor has matured in me and for this I am grateful but, above all, I am grateful to her for having gently changed a life that was dying out in sadness and for having taught me to hope again.</p>\n<p><img src=\"/assets/jerusalem.jpg\" alt=\"jerusalen\" title=\"jerusalen\"></p>\n<p>I try to put into practice her message from June 22, 2020: Acceptance, obedience and love! I have to work a lot on acceptance, it's not easy for me and I still rebel in the face of injustices and problems, especially those that concern my children.</p>\n<p>I have a great desire: to become servidora of Servidora.</p>","frontmatter":{"category":"selfawareness","date":"2020-12-08","author":"Andreana Demontis","path":"/blog/retracing ","title":"Retracing","image":"/assets/olivos-1.jpg","language":"en","previewText":"As part of the course there is a day of baptism in the Jordan river and I watch with amusing parade of those who go to receive baptism from La Jardinera; I won't go, I think; then, almost at the end, I get in line too, what do I lose? I am curious to see if I feel anything different."}}},"pageContext":{"mdPath":"/blog/retracing "}},
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